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Pat_93BIP@hotmail.com Music is in her genes. A passion for Dancing. You laugh, I laugh. You bitch, I bitch.  A Aihui Aloy Aldric Adeline Ahdi Ah loi Ariffin B Brindha Blodwen Boyao Benjamin Benjidan Badrina C Cindy Carine Claudia Camilia Cherbeng Corrupt D Dave E Evan F Fiona G Gwendy Grace H Humin Humin (4/8) I Ivan J Jingfang Jonathan Jerald Joel Jiahui Joywe Junjing Jaslyn Jazon K Kimberly Kazi L Lingg Liyi M Marc Meiping Meifeng Meipeng N Nicole Natasha O Olivia P Prerana Q Qingli R Ruting Ryan S Sarah Shihui Shuianwen Sinyee Sheryl T U V Vinod Vivian Victoria W Wenjia Weixin Wingyiu Weilin Winona Wenbin Wenyi X Xiuyan Xinlin Y Yuefeng Yeekeat Yikai Yaxin Z Zixuan
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cross-fingers.
Monday, December 28, 2009guess everyone is super busy and stressed out about ITE next year and I'm one of them. so confused about the venue because its super far. yes, SIMEI ITE. guess I've got to wake up like so early when school starts and I'm worrying on how am i ever gonna get there. takes time for me to learn the destination or maybe months. well, tomorrow's my interview for the course: Community Care and Social Services. not sure if I'll make it, just hope whatever questions they asked is true from my heart and yes, its what i wanna do in life. I'm may not be born to serve but I'm born to help others who needs my help cos i know I'm happy doing it. no matter if it gives me without a future, I'm still determine to accept it cos i don't use cash to buy happiness but earn it myself. why not light up someone's else life with your care and concern? show a little spark and add colors to their life. show them, they don't live in darkness alone. fuck the whole crap.
Sunday, December 27, 2009typed a long newsletter on yesterday's post elaborating on how terrified i was to handle the counter my own at work. this morning, was prepared to face the worse and i know i was gonna die sooner or later as i was counting the money as it was the job for the concess counter to do. in the end, was told to be greeter by my manager as she knows i can't cope well at concess. its a good thing but i was sad when she said i can't do well at counter and all those trainings I've been through have gone to a waste. its the fact, can't deny it but I've always been trying hard enough to reach her expectation and i always fail. greeter today, sucks alright? everything is so fucked up for me nowadays, why can't i be like my friends? learn fast, think fast. me? - fucked up, bitch! Corrupt, I'm sorry i can't be there when you needed someone so badly. its not once but multiple times and i hate the feeling of declining a lot. half of the unpleasant memories are gone but i brought it up again and I'm feeling so guilty and fucked up. closest friends of mine are my heart and soul and when they rant something out, i could feel the painfulness and its hurting me inside so badly. i can't elaborate much on the phone cos i was too heartbroken by how sad and annoyed you are. everything came out so unexpected and I've got no specific answers for you and I'm sorry. no matter what, please cheer up. whether if you encounter the most dangerous obstacles of your life or whether the whole world is gonna end, i want you to smile through the deepest pain. nothing is impossible without a solution and i want to solve it for you if only I'm allowed me to. i want to see the Corrupt i use to know, so gleeful and happy. just remember, you're one of a kind. you're greatest human ever made on earth and i thank God for sending you into my life and adding a new person on my friend's list. please, cheer up. 
panic.
Saturday, December 26, 2009wow, I'm so god-like. left cathay yesterday at 0430am and slept at 5 plus in the morning. gotta wake up at 8am in the morning as i was scheduled to work today and i thought that its no use sleeping anyway but still manage to wake up energetically. job today was greeter and I'm almost on the verge of killing some customers. is like what the hell is wrong with those inconsiderate people? are they so that blind not to see the numbers above flashing or not rather than always popping out the same old question: can go in already anot ah? the halls are still unclean and they are always pushing me to my limits saying the same old shit or not, showing fucking attitude. if they wanna watch the movie with an unclean environment, so be it but its cathay's job to make the customers feel like home. don't they ever appreciate and know whats behind the scene or know my feeling like ever? why in the world are there such inpatient people? put yourself in my shoes, then you'll know the feeling of it. tomorrow I'm going solo either on Counter 4 or 5. yes, solo as in alone without any trainer beside me and guess what? I'm twice as terrified now, facing 101 attitudes at greeter already ruined my whole day. so i guess tomorrow, it'll ruined my life forever. just how many people am i gonna piss off tomorrow? how am i ever gonna handle it? if i ask for help, will anyone be there to assist me? i doubt so, cos the crowd will be unbelievable and everyone will be busy. i can't possibly ask someone who is busy for help, super inconsiderate and i hate to be someone like that. there's only one person whom i can seek help from but is not confirmed that it'll succeed. - help(!) God, i seriously gonna hate tomorrow cos I'm gonna make all the customers so angry and i don't know what to do. if only, you'll be there to show me the route and guild me through all those horrifying moments and let it pass by me quickly. hear my pray, I'm scared, I'm seriously am. 
WOW!
Thursday, December 24, 2009work today was a total disaster, not myself but the huge crowd at the counters. first time seeing so many humans lingering at cathay cos of Alvin and The Chipmunks 2 i guess. totally full house and crazy as hell but good thing I'm was doing 3D and not facing as much customers. anyway, i find people today really weird cos after they redeemed their 3D glasses, they went straight to the Exit door thinking that the theater was there when it was just behind them. some even try going into the hall number 8 dummies and i find it so dam hilarious. was thinking if tomorrow's gotta be 5 times worser than today's cos its Christmas Eve and human invasion already took place but tomorrow's Christmas, aren't cathay gotta turn real nuts? well, can't assume much but my intuition tells me that yeah, its gonna be worser. I'll be doing 3D again tomorrow and will once again, screw up many things again. Wenjie's Joke: Which door can't be opened or closed? Answer: Indoor and Outdoor. Wenjie's Joke: How do you stop a waterfall? Answer: Capture a photo of it. Patricia's Joke: Which nut doesn't have a shell? Answer: Doughnut. Patricia's Joke: Why did the chicken cross the road? Answer: To get to the other side of the road. to be continued... Cathay outing!
Wednesday, December 23, 2009went to catch 2 movies with my colleagues today cos I'M OFF for the day and i could somehow say both movies are free of charge, one is a senior citizen ticket which cost only 4 dollars while the other ticket is free! Bodyguard and Assassin is a dam touching movie and i cried like some bloody water hose whereas Princess and the frog was hilarious, great great movies. lunched with Carine and Vinod after that and cam-whored like hell, Vinod loves my camera. RIGHT? oh well, went shopping for chocolates at FairPrice Xtra and i bought many many chocolates for my friends and family. kinda hope they'll like it cos its the thought that counts, not how expensive or cheap it is. dinner at Nebo was on YongLiang today, ordered many finger food and had a superb great laugh. had too much of wedges and fish, felt sick of it after that and can you imagine fruit punch and lime juice with soda water? tasted alright but its carbonated and its so not my thing at all. days gotta be like this on my off day always cos its so unforgetable.                          
faith.
Tuesday, December 22, 2009Failure will never overtake me if my determination to succeed is strong enough. started work at 10am but was late for 5 minutes as i dozed off when the alarm rang, good thing i was not noticed or not i might die somehow. guess today was pretty awesome cos i manage to know almost everything at the concess counter but for the vouchers, I'm still blank. it will take me some time to learn it cos i do not know how many cathay vouchers are there in the world. gotta run my own counter next week and prepare for the worse cos millions of people will be queuing up for tickets like forever. God knows if I'm able to handle it well or maybe assume that I'll get multiple scoldings for the whole week. sometimes, not everything comes in proper or pleasant beginnings. we always tend to fall over and over again when we fail not knowing what wrong doings we did but grieve over it and let the bad encounters run over us. success comes with failure and every step we take, it'll lead us to a whole new beginning. God gave us this gift, its walking forward. notice why we walk forward and not backwards? cos God want us to move on and never walk back to the past where mistakes were made but learn from it and benefit it in the future for us. you can't boil a pot of water without fire, you can't clap your hands without both hands, you can't sing without a song. there is always something we need to get to what we desire and that is faith. 
screwed!
Monday, December 21, 2009finally get to have a free time to blog about the happenings recently, was super busy with work for the past 3 days as i was working night shift throughout. great news is, i manage to get a hang of the concess counter a little with the help of Vinod and I'm so happy that I've served quite a lot of customers with my own bare hands yesterday. oh well, did 3D training today and i think its kinda boring sometimes cos the Avatar 3D movie lasted for 2 hours 30 minutes and we gotta wait till then but its lucky that i could watch the movie free and i can say that the movie is super great and awesome. guess i screwed up the whole day today as i was reprimanded by my manager multiple times and i felt guilty somehow. couldn't do the things that are right but made a mess out of it everytime when problems occurred. useless isn't it? fuck myself! daddy bought for me a Sony Camera yesterday cos i begged for it for my early birthday present but didn't expect him to purchase it so quickly for me and I'm superb happy. daddy, thanks for everything. though i know money is hard to earn but i kept on asking for more and you always get it for me as soon as possible without any complaints. you're truly amazing! 
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